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Ten days

2011-12-15T21:48:00.003+08:00

It's Xmas season,how I hope I'm in Malaysia doing all my shopping,pamper myself with buying all the stuffs in my shopping list.Yeah,I don't mind as long as I can celebrate my Xmas in my homeland,exchanging gifts with each other,walking through the crowd and got sprayed by the random persons.I love Xmas simply because I enjoy listening to those joyful rhythm,and while i was a child,i do believe there're Santa Claus,he visits every child in the town and gifted them all the love and blessings.And when i grow up,here comes into realization our parents are our Santa Claus.

Anyways,I'm going to celebrate my Xmas and countdown in the foreign lands.My boy actually promised to do the house decoration this year if I wish,but i just simply grumbling over there.

So do u guys heard about the meteor rain or shooting stars which will be appearing on 13 and 14dec?Yeah,I grabbed the opportunity to watch them myself.It was late night in India,happened around 9pm india local time till 10++.It was my first time watching shooting stars in my entire life.Looking up into the night sky filled with glittering stars,there were random shooting starts just flew over,it's just few secs and if u manage to catch a glimpse and make your wish.

It's just 2 weeks away from 2012.

Quick!Make your new year wish and it's time to start a new year goal and let go all the sad stuffs.

Last of all,I appreciate there's always people who love me and care me the most.

I'm a lucky girl and I love every single of them.

12.11.2011

2011-11-12T17:54:00.006+08:00

Suppose to be sleeping in peace on such a pretty Saturday, yet I have to be awaken for the pathology test.Overall,still able to answer the MTF session.

Another two weeks for block test and clinical skills,i wasn't born to be a pharmacist,trust me pharmacology really stress me up,with all the classification and adverse effects,how am I going to memorise all these?Is my hippocampus working well?or I left it somewhere?

Microbiology,uhm,well it sounds interesting,but why why bacteria and viruses why are u look so strange to me?

Clinical skills,stitching and intravenous injection I have practiced foe few times.But still,I'm nervous for it.Lumbar puncture,sometimes I just can't find the appropriate spot,yeah,it's between L3 and l4,but spinal fluid just simply doesn't like me,why can't they just flow out?

Here are some pictures of us during birthday.

Our friends actually plan the celebration for both of us.

And I had the pre-birthday celebration for him the day before haha.

left corner was our bday during 2010;D

04.11-2011;D ;D ;D

Alright,study mode on!!

It's going to be my 20th and his 21th

2011-11-01T22:25:00.003+08:00

It's November;D

The rainbow appears after the stormy heavy rainfall.Does it signify anything?There's always hope after the terrible events,u agree?

But more to my concern is I've been planning a small birthday surprise for baby boy.

He actually hoping me to bake a cake for him.But gonna to get him some disappointment,I seldom step into the home kitchen.=p

yeay,I ain't a romantic girlfriend,just a simple dinner date.=D

It''ll be our first time celebrating together,yet on the same day last year,we had our first conversation.

I'm glad cos I have you.I love you.

2011-10-16T15:57:00.003+08:00

一段感情会维持只因为双方都在努力的维持，

一旦任何一方不再付出，那爱情就会消失得无影无踪。

或许有些人已经成为了我的遗憾，但我不后悔遇上你

很多时候不是错过了才懂得珍惜吗？

我承认我很怀念中学时期，一个又让人爱又恨的日子，却又让人无法忘怀的青春，

但人总要往前看，我只允许自己偶尔缅怀过去，

而如今的我学会了珍惜现在和身边的人。

再过两个月就一年了，不长又不短的日子，却有种已经在一起好久的日子了

Blogging mode

2011-10-14T22:23:00.003+08:00

Sudden come into a realize which I've deserted my blog for two months.Heee..

Life back to hectic schedule.

But this's the life cycle,true not?everyone's having the same routine repeatedly.

Oh ya,just had Johnny English 2 in two weeks earlier,laughed until the tears split.That's way of destress.Laugh is always the best medicine.

Watched Nasi Lemak 2.0 for the second time.First time was watching with brothers back in Malaysia while second just to give my boy a companion.However,I still found it's funny.

Any hk drama to recommend?Heard that forensic heroes is pretty good.

If you know,blackberry server was down for the past two days and it actually causes global crisis as bb users were complaining the messages and email couldnt send out.I never know I'm so dependent on my blackberry,haha,just feeling discomfort without surfing or pressing my phone.What i can do is just making outgoing calls and text messages only.

Ms ejae and mr kiddie,we've been losing contact for how many months?

When to skype huh?

Short update

2011-08-04T19:35:00.003+08:00

部落格静的恐怖，

大家各有各忙的吧？

离开的好像都将离开了，好像很难碰面了。我会想你的。

但我相信缘分。

我真的很想看那部戏，是不是只有台湾才有上映？

他答应我会帮我买DVD，害我现在很兴奋~然后又害怕希望越大，失望越大

除了忙准备大考，还有一件很重要的事等待我去解决

好像应该开口了，毕竟快半年多了。

你相信梦吗？梦到的人是不是你日夜所思的人？

哈哈，莫名其妙的梦，却让我的心情好了一整天。

2011-07-12T19:25:00.003+08:00

Everything is just fine.

Workload is actually increases,working hard to make my effort proportionate to it.

Dressed up for the Supremo ball last week.

I got myself all those accessories include bangles ,earrings in India.

Saree clothes,Binti(the shiny sticker like dot on my forehead) all from India,heels from Malaysia.

Smoky eye effect make up by best girl friend,well i absolutely have no knowledge about makeup

Below first:trying to look cool,but failed.Haha!

Below second:my fav pic of night,don't u think u're looking at some kind of bacteria under the microscope?

A strong feeling for not returning Malaysia for the working in future after the 708 incidents.

It's still too early to talk about it I know.

Some update for my love issue to who show their concern to me.

The breakup.The getting back.The argument.Okay now we're in the quarrel stage.The same issue again.Every couple do experience this phase aren't they?As long as the bond grows tighter.

I will wish to have a lesson on teaching how to handle a relationship well if there's.I know aint't good in this when it comes to myself.Instead me can be other's love advisor.

The recent

2011-06-27T19:47:00.003+08:00

I was getting frustrated when got the message from home,called back without second thought.

Yelled on the phone,wondering why they never inform me before taking the decision.

End the call with an annoyed mood,in a second later,honeyboy bbm-ed me.

I felt sorry for him for listening all my grumble repeatedly.Trying hard to chill me down,that's what he usually do to me.And,I received bro's message again,noticing it's actually a lie.Mom was anxious about I've been not calling home that frequent,and here she came out with the 'brilliant idea'.Oh well,I got tricked.

We bbm each other quite some while as usual.That's one of the disadvantages of getting blackberry phone.Cos we keep ourselves connected whenever we go.Blackberry users do agree with me,haha.

Year 2 second semester is on the run,I swear I'll work harder.Here comes the monsoon season,making me doze off in the class.Alright,I sleep in and skip today morning class.

Text book,class notes,we are officially engaged.

Oh yea,I found I've some talent in cooking.Perhaps I should take culinary course instead?

I'm watching a taiwanese drama“最后决定爱上你”,the storyline is sweet yet funny.

The main actor is hot.

Falling stars

2011-06-15T18:55:00.003+08:00

双眼直视桌上的考卷

啊？怎么好像一题都不会做

头脑一片空白

读了等于没有读

很熟悉却写不出

就似藏在我的其中一个脑细胞，需要的时候偏偏记不起找不到

头脑达到了饱和程度

努力寻找着空余的空间

医生们，你们都有神奇记忆力吗？

上百种的抗生素，你们是怎样记起的？

那么细菌呢？我真的很想了解你，可是有时真的无能为力

为了你们，我连做梦也会想起你

看到食物也失去胃口

荷尔蒙失调爱胡思乱想

天天熬夜害我的黑眼圈越趋严重

最重要的是我越来越肥下次嫁不出怎么办？

我好想越来越不正常了

我真的需要解脱~

还剩一张Forensic medicine paper

我就可以笑着睡觉了笑着发梦

那天有个我很不熟悉的男孩fb chat我

嗯三年没联络了吧高中时期也没说几句话

还以为他要我Like fans page

结果竟然找我聊天O.O

我差点想开口问：先生，你找错了人了吗？哈哈

不过，有惊喜也很心暖=）

Hello!

2011-06-02T15:17:00.005+08:00

睡眠不充足

黑眼圈加深

我真的快变熊猫了

以下是我和蜜糖男孩的对话：

我说，我今晚很闷，同时很不开心

他说，怎么了？可以跟我分享吗？

我说，告诉你有用吗？你解决不了

他说，其他事我可以帮上忙，经痛我就帮不了

我说，无言-ing。。。心痛啊，你帮的上吗？能让我心痛的人很了不起了。

他说，我可以。inject your heart intravenously with adrenaline.

唉，这是读太多医学的后遗症，整个人也变得nerd nerd

那天又有Case，连续看了几回，好像都变得没感觉了，开始有了冷血的迹象，我知道这不是件好事。

我答应自己，下星期待小考完毕，我要好好放松！

所谓放松，就是和我的黑草莓gang一起出来喝茶吹水 ;D

再来恭喜我快迈入新学期了~也象征着我要更努力了！加油！

六月了，我得天天撑雨伞了，因为美丽的雨季来临了

May

2011-05-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

今早在朦胧中，头脑还未处于清醒状态就爬起来

本打算为九点的测验作最后的复习

一不小心随手按了按闹钟怎料被我摔坏了

摔坏了那个陪在我身边已有几年的闹钟

同时也亲手粉碎了那段回忆

想了想拿去修理秒针已不动了

看来想找回一模一样的似乎很难

今天又有 Case

哎生命可贵啊！珍惜眼前人

最近发生很多不开心的事庆幸的是最后都平安无事

谢谢那个蜜糖男孩=）

Take your own risk before you read

2011-04-15T17:29:00.004+08:00

The clocks shows 1pm,just received a message saying there will be autopsy in the mortuary at 2pm.

We were supposed to get our attendances since forensic science's one of our subjects in second year.Rushing there with our lab coat on with an surge of excitement.Cold hearted?Nope.To be honest,we have been receiving few cases in the past weeks.But since those were homicide cases, us the students are not allowed to enter.Actually it's nothing to happy with,whenever we got the call,it means there are peoples dying in an unusual way and their bodies have to be examined.

Back to topic,uhm,the mortuary is crowded with my batch mates.It's our first time experience.After being waited for some while,we are called to enter the room.Victim is a teenager.Suspected reason is snake bites.Surgeons first dissect the body,removing all the internal organs,including lungs,kidney,intestinal organs etc.And the blood keeps oozing out as it's a newly fresh body which was found just few days ago.My lecturer is explaining the procedure while dissecting the body.The skull is cut open using an electric saw.After some times,those organs are kept in a transparent glass bottle to be further examined.The whole procedures is completed with the suturing process.The final conclusion the teen is dead of secondary complications causing by the snake venom,respiratory failure.The smell is strong and it's different from formalin which i used to.Should have mask on next time.One of the girls fainted,guess it's too bloody for her.

I'm glad with having the opportunity to witness it myself.It's much different from what we saw in the drama.I love forensic science!!Alright,let's us pray for the teen,R.I.P.

Weather over here is burning me.Arghhhh,will i get dehydrated one day??I need more water.

Did staining procedure in today lab class.Hahaha,stupid me accidentally stained my own fingers.It's purple now!!

I saw E.coli and Staphylococcus aureus under the light microscope.Yeah Yeah;D

Standard two

2011-04-08T23:51:00.003+08:00

啊~天气好热~我的头也开始转转转~

课程渐渐忙碌，才两个星期笔记就已经堆起来了

我好怀念我的一年级，二年级的课业好闷

我怀念解剖学~

我怀念从前的我们~

药剂学让我快疯了

病理学激起我的兴趣

细菌学我会慢慢爱上你

我说，有些事不用说的太清楚

我不想引起任何误会

只要我们还是朋友就好

如果牛奶身边没了蜜糖

有时候还会想起你的好

好矛盾

天蝎情人好像好难当

我的下一个不要再是天蝎座好吗？

Back to study

2011-03-26T20:14:00.004+08:00

Just reached my hostel in India.

back home journey was extremely tiring and if you know,i have to take one day flight transit.since there's not direct flight to my study place.

It makes me to hard to believe one month holiday break just passed.

And guess i don't really meet up with everyone.mostly spending times with family.

Having movie almost everyday,shop for unnecessary items like shoes and jeans,

and i got in love with high heels,girls hard to resist to all those stuffs right?lol.

What to do??Got to work up on my studies and earn my own money,and if i can find a rich husband,everything will be go perfect.haha,*dreaming*

Been teased by brother for not learning makeup.

There are reasons I don't do makeup but it's time to learn some makeup right?

Makeup makes girls look prettier and hotter.

and of course i have good malaysian food before my flight.

No worries,I had asked my jogging partner to jog at least twice a week.hope it really work.I look like a fatty bum bum now.

Weather's getting hotter and drier.

How can I say goodbye to my tanned skin?sigh.

Class begins on monday,wish me luck!

And who's the lucky boy or girl sitting beside me??

Ish,my bbm is not working.

我很无聊

2011-03-09T23:38:00.004+08:00

回来后

整个人很像被Sun burn了

而且是有亮亮的感觉

又增重了

牛奶的before and after有很大的差别

唉唉唉我宁愿自己不曾去印度啊

第一个礼拜

大部分时间花在陪亲爱的家人

出席朋友家的party

第二个礼拜

连续几天都溜出去

见了想见的人

逛了逛又不知自己需要添加些什么

才发现自己也没差什么该满足了吧

看了几部最新的电影没有太大的惊喜

我还是有种郁闷的感觉

忽然好想去旅行让头脑好好充氧

谁要陪我走走~

哈哈看来第三和第四个礼拜该来点新鲜的吧~

你曾经试过因为一首歌而想起某个人吗？

这个礼拜我有意外的惊喜

不过那个人好像有点反应不来

Dilemma

2011-03-05T00:17:00.003+08:00

I ain't a walking GPS.My sense of direction isn't as good as my dad.

Always get confused with KL road since the sideboard tends to leads you to a further path instead of reaching the same destination in a shorter time.This's how I wasted my petrol and toll fees.

Dial to my personal walking gps,whenever I lost my way,he's always the only one who can guide me.;)

Went sunway pyramid to watch 127 hrs by James Franco.

However they're facing some technical problem,it's the first time I encounter it.

Sigh,went to SS2 to have my dinner.

Honeyboy be the driver today,I got a complaint of dangerous driving skill.

Well,i'm a totally safe driver.

In dilemma now.

I always get myself involved in such situation.

But then,i'm the only one who can solve this problem.

二十岁的心声

2011-02-17T01:33:00.003+08:00

嗯看了一篇出自Carmen大师手笔的文章

标题《二十岁的定义》，

对啊，二十岁了，想了想我们都好像不年轻了，

外面的世界还正等待我们去探索，

常听大人们说苦口良药，

我们苦言相劝只为你好，将来你要走的路还很长

我告诉你我们的经验，总比你自己跌到后才觉悟来得好

我说，不曾跌倒，怎能知道那种痛？

哎从小我本来就是温室里的小花，

不曾受伤不曾一个人独自到外面闯闯，

备受长辈们的爱护，

我知道有时候我很糊涂，

但我说，是时候长大了，

是时候离开那温暖的被窝到处走走了。

这或许是我二十岁最想做的一件事。

有时候也许我累了，

只想努力地把书念好，

接着好好地孝顺培育我的父母。

因为，我知道，世界上没有比亲情来的更重要。

Stimuli

2011-02-17T00:46:00.008+08:00

One day,the patient came to the clinic and she was diagnosed with the following symptoms;

palpitation
heart rate fluctuates
cold sweat
lose of motivation
depress mood
plasma glucocorticoids level increases sharply
increased growth hormone
insomnia
frequent REM sleep with vivid dream
mild sensory aphasia(for your information,sensory aphasia means speaking non-sense)
poor memory
increased appetite

Haha,the symptoms above were shown on me for the past one month.

Anyways,just a little update,I have done with my university theory test,three more papers to go.

Yeah yeah,my biggest hope is to pass all my test.Please,god i pray to you,bless me.

Special thanks to my family,

You raise me up,

You shield me from the danger world,

You will always there for me,

I would never live strong without you,

especially to my little cute bro,who almost calls me everyday to release my tension.

We're getting closer as day goes,we shared our laughter,the thought,and we grow up together.

Love him to the max

Yesterday conversation, was 'Jie jie,jie jie,come back fast!I want to camwhore with you as many as i could.'

And i replied,and set as profile picture right?

The phone conversation will always end up with HEY,I LOVE YOU,MISS YOU YA!

Hahaha,we are just like little couple.

A news to share,

I'll landing on Malaysia next week.

Uhm,can't wait to see u guys.

Love yea.

Oh yea,i was quite surprise to receive Kai Aun's msg the day before my test.

Thanks yea.

Lucky star

2011-01-21T18:16:00.005+08:00

Where's my lucky star has gone?

Been hospital quite frequent for past two months.

Quite fed up with the local hospital system especially i come towards the specialist dept.

One of the most beneficial thing is we're student,we enjoyed the privilege to have free medical care,however the working system where they currently practicing is extremely inefficient.

Hours to be spent for file-sending,and plus we have to wait for another hour for doc consultation.

Well,i'm not complaining,it's just some sort of improvement which i think they should working on.Though the workload for a local doctor is quite heavy, especially to India whom owning a huge population.The ratio of a doctor to patient will never be balance off.

Neway,I've just done with my last block test.Upcoming challenge is the scariest University Test.

Yup,I can't afford to fail any subject.I'm not going be the one who being left behind.Three weeks to go.I've been counting down the days hrs min and second left.Epinephrine level is arising gradually.But I know it shouldn't be I shall worry about.Full attention to my studies is my main focus now.

Over the past few days,while I'm still doing the block test,insomnia tends to look for my accompanion.

Breaking my record again,exactly 3 hrs for preparing one subject.People around me were stressing their nerve also,my friend don't even sleep.Woohahaha..is that the life of a medical student should be??

I start to wonder will i even get nearer to my bed during preparation for university test?

Few packets of coffee?

Nescafe 3 in 1 does help me stay up few hours=)

CNY is around the corner.So guys,what's the plan?

My family is going to travel over my brother's place.I wish I can take my departure,but it's just cant happen to me.Disneyland..awwwww...=(

Kindly show your sympathy to me.Haha,Im going to celebrate my CNY and valentine day here.

I've been gone crazy and listening to CNY song from music station.

Distance doesn't make us far apart,on contrast it's tightening the bond between me and you day by day.;)

I've working on to be a better one.

It might not reaching your satisfaction level.

But I promised,I'll try my best.

Please do believe me;)

I know who am I

2011-01-13T15:01:00.002+08:00

I wish I could have a long break,

Walking along the pavement heading home,

Running across the silent streets without looking behind,

I wish you can take me home,

I promised,one day,I will return with a big smile.

And make you proud.

My life my dream

2011-01-13T14:28:00.003+08:00

Take life as easy,I mumbled to myself.

Shouldn't life to be filled with laughter and joys?

Never lets things tear you down,stay strong and optimistic.

Precious with what you posses now.

I woke up with a really bad dream,

which takes away my hope.

I lost someone I loved the most forever.

Uhmm,I'm trying hard to interpret and analyse what exactly it means.

Dream seems to be a mystery issue over the issue.Do you believe in dream?

With the ruined mood,heading off for anatomy viva .Yeap,it's my last dissection class as a medical student.

I did some mistakes during the viva,but fortunately the examiner keeps on hinting me.

Identify the lentiform nucleus as thalamus,haha!!

auditory pathway,orbit etc.

And do you ever know our cornea looks exactly like your contact lens?? just a thin transparent avascular structure.

Neuroanatomy is a fantastic subject if u're really interested in it.=)

You'll get amazed with how brain works.

Satiety center,feeding center,thirst center

sexual drive

biological clock

temperature regulation

behaviour,mature judgement,abstract thinking,personality

auditory,sensation,visual etc

All of the above are located exactly at your brain cortex,gyrus,hypothalamus.

and the most important,anterior group of thalamus which is associated with your recent memory.

Alrite,anatomy spottter tomorrow,wish me luck!!

January 2011

2011-01-11T19:57:00.006+08:00